June 2012
Lessons on Loving a Prophet →
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One.
You know how this ends. There’s nothing you can do to change it, so make peace with it now. Ready your hands for the callus, shred the cloth for bandages, prepare the rosaries.
Two.
When you meet him, outside the grocery, along the boardwalk, beneath the overpass, you will not know what he is. He will be neither be too charming nor too handsome, not thunder, not polish
Three.
The day you fall in love, his mouth will spill your name. He will repeat and repeat. He will not touch you. He will watch your hips, study whatever ample you have, will ask to watch you dance. When you turn to leave, he will use your name like a choke chain.
Four.
He will call you miracle. Your face will unravel. This is his magic. When he begs you promise, say yes.
Five.
When he offers his lips, take them. Take his arms, his throat, take his toes when he offers. Gorge. Swallow everything whole. Gag. Vomit. Swallow more. Do not hesitate. No time for polite, or coy. Take.
Six.
When the minions call you whore, nod.
Seven.
He will tell you of the others. How they went crazy in their sleep awaiting his return. Do not flinch. Do not doubt your thickened fingertips. Stand upright. You promised.
Eight.
When you find him in his room, thrashing the sheets, pressing his palms into the walls, howling, his face a river… close the door. This is how he makes wine. Leave him in his sorcery.
Nine.
When he explains that he cannot love. That he will never be yours alone. When he tells how the meek, the gluttons, the tempted, the proud are his angels, do not mourn. Smile, feed him, wash his hair.
Ten.
He is a king among thieves. The leeches will hollow his skin, the crows reduce him to bones. His own heart will empty him. Allow for the bleed. Be ready with tourniquet and prayer.
Eleven.
In the dry burn of dawn, after the last of the lashes, the thorns and the spittle, when his limp body is laid at your feet, remember the night you loved him, the ember of his eyes and the way the words came like honey.
Twelve.
You were made for this.
Lessons on Loving a Prophet - Jeanann Verlee
“The history of the world is not written, the history of Europe is.”
—Ivan Van Sertimam, Associate Professor, Rutgers University Author of They Came Before Columbus: The African Presence in Early America (via funkchunk)
“What we call a self is not a thing. It is a process. It is an activity. It is the sum total of what we do. It is not static. The self does not exist as a separate entity that interacts with the world, but is the sum total of the interactions of a living being and its environment. Living with the notion that the self is separate and static leads to suffering, because such a notion flies in the face of reality.”
—Bodhipaksa, Living as a River
“Is it only love
that makes a place?”
-Eavan Boland, from “Anna Liffey” —(via ahuntersheart)
that makes a place?”
-Eavan Boland, from “Anna Liffey” —(via ahuntersheart)
“Sun, heat, and light, which delighted those around you, appeared to you as perturbations of your solitude, summons to the outdoors, obligations to joy. You refused to have your euphoria put down to climate. You wanted to be solely responsible for it.”
—Édouard Levé, Suicide, trans. Jan Steyn
